The following is the sixth e-mail message I sent to Brian Harner, and the 14th message of our conversation. This was sent on August 27 2020, at 8:53PM.
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I am inclined to
think the whole Ultrasignup/race thing might have been overstepping
myself. I'm not sure there's much worth saying about it at this
point, though it could lead to a conversation I want to have anyway
about naivete and what I call "the ultimate blackpill." If
your link is not totally working just yet then this could be a good
time to shift focus from the mundane to more eternal matters.
Overall the Judas situation may verify the idea that the most
significant adversary in life is traitors. This was true in both
world wars and is also played out in works of fiction. The most
noteworthy conflicts are not those between families (such as races)
but those within families.
In a thread in June you said that
Christopher has been under divine instruction and will be here to
answer questions when you are gone. That must be Nathan.
I used
to play a MMORPG called Runescape. There were enemies in the game
called the "Lesser Demons." Lesser could also be "inferior"
or "lowly" as in, "a low regard for life." Here
is a visual:
https://oldschoolrunescape.fandom.com/wiki/Lesser_demon
My
home city of Utica is part of the rust belt and there are many
abandoned buildings here. 15 minutes after I sent you the e-mail
about my name, at 1:30AM, an abandoned mall at the edge of the city
caught on fire. This is one of the biggest fires that has happened
around here in my lifetime. 18 hours later the smell of smoke is
still in the air at my home, which is about 10 miles from the site of
the fire. The fire could use some "Kewl water," which is
the best I can ask of my name.
There are experiences I have had
that I have never talked about. I made a list of things I would most
want to ask you about before potentially parting ways, and they are
matters I should discuss with you in either case. Because of the
complexity I will have to share some of it in writing, though I feel
that soon it will be time to talk to over the phone. In the recent
/x/ thread you said that if you could get a phone conversation with
me you would explain how the pyramid walls were built. In an older
thread you offered a lesson on how to break the reincarnation cycle
to the buyer of the pale horse.
The most important subject I want
to talk to you about is the void. This is potentially a very dense
subject. It relates to what you say about information that is beyond
language. Earlier this year I wrote several articles about the void
and they are long. I felt I had to try but I knew it would be
difficult to communicate. I did explain that the information I
receive may or may not be accurate depending on the extent of my
purity in the moment. When I tap into the void I sometimes prefer to
translate the vibrations into language in the present, rather than
waiting to try to interpret it later.
To start I could point out
that you said, "Both Alexander and Kassidi lost the Holy Grail
to the void by breaking the seal, and it cost Kassidi (in the movie)
her life." In my article about you I did talk about the void,
which is the singularity of all things ("the all"). I said,
"When you tap into the void you can see through the eyes of
those who came before you and feel their feelings. Your strongest
connection through the void is to those most like you. The person in
history most like Brian is Jesus, and Brian is similar enough to
Jesus that he has been able to see through his eyes."
Am I
talking about the void correctly? I have not seen the Indiana Jones
movie and will try to interpret based on my understanding of things.
It sounds like Alexander and Kassidi suppressed their hearts,
betrayed some kind of contract, and threw away their salvation. The
void in this example represents the inevitable renewal of the
perfection of life due to the laws of nature. The void re-absorbed
the Holy Grail (i.e. their chance at victorious self-realization),
and Kassidi and Alex were left vulnerable and out in the open. The
universe does not overlook what each lifeform is meant to be, even if
those lifeforms choose to betray their destiny. Once the two
recognized this reality there was nothing more for them to do in this
life, so at least one of them died.
That interpretation sounds
true enough to the real-life stories of those two. One of my concerns
is whether I use my terms with enough precision. Where I said
"universe" I thought "void" might be the correct
term but was not sure.
The fact that you may die with unshared
information has been on my mind. I might have the potential to absorb
some of your non-verbal knowledge- especially if I get the right
handle on the void- though I know there is a lot of it. I guess we
cannot use the method of staring into each other's eyes since we are
not the same sex. There must be ways of some kind. My article about
you felt like some of the easiest writing I have ever done. If I
could match your energetic level well enough then perhaps I would
absorb some of that knowledge.
One reason I told you about my
genetic lines is in case you can provide clarity on matters. Anything
I say to you I am open to receiving corrections or additional
information on. I say my soul is German while knowing that German
people are not identified as such in the historical record until the
time of the Roman Empire. I have not yet seen where my genetic line
goes far back in time. I was also hoping you might tell me how
"tainted” you think my genetics might actually be.
I do not
discuss such topics ever. I have felt a bit uncomfortable doing so in
these last several e-mails but I know I have to somehow. Whenever I
try to talk about these things I feel like it tarnishes my meekness
and purity somehow, and I have not seen the way around that yet. This
is a matter where I am asking for your help because I want to share
my thought process transparently, but I haven't figured out the right
way to share this yet. I can foresee this requiring some more
information on my part (like tracing back my genetic line) which is
fine.